This is a tough one for many people because it's that internal battle we face everyday. Often times we find ourselves looking in the mirror saying "I'm not good enough" or "I'm not pretty/handsome enough". When did we start really looking and criticizing ourselves? ALL THE TIME!!! I myself struggle to accept who I am when I look in the mirror I sometimes think. "I am ugly" "I hate my scars that come from many falls and I can be clumsy to where I bruise up and scrape my skin easily. Even to say "I don't like my face". It's a battle that I deal with on the daily because socially growing up I was really awkward. Yes I had friends and classmates that I hung out with at school and sometimes after school but still it was awkward for me. I also think that's partially the introvert in me, also I think that's also why I have a hard time with going the to gym it's super awkward. Also I have the terrible habit of saying that I'll start committing to things and once I start somehow I fall off the wagon. And that is also because I'm terrified of being looked at while I work out like what if I'm doing something wrong or people are just staring because they don't have anything else to do. As I get older I'm slowly but surely learning to let go of my fears and worries because in reality I'm not the only one who is probably thinking that there's something wrong with myself. God has been steadily showing me that I shouldn't hate myself"HATE" whoa a strong word there we all know that but it's true for me I never realized that I hated myself for a lot of things and its by no fault of my own it's that mentality that I've always had in me that I never realized I felt or expresses. God always emphasizes to love yourself and all our faults because he loves us with all of our ugly and beautiful mixed in together he sees everything as beautiful. I've been made fun of all my school life by peers because I looked funny to them or I sounded funny to them. Some peers I knew since kindergarten and they relentlessly teased me all the way through high school. They never took the time to get to know me or my story to know me they just picked something to make fun of and ran with it. Over the years I've grown a backbone those words just roll off me because I knew who I was and whom I was made to be and all these "bullies" were just insecure about themselves and didn't know how to project well so they pick on others to make themselves feel better. I feel nothing but sympathy and empathy towards them because it's not their fault nothing about their life is their fault it's all part of a bigger plan to make them better and stronger in the future. Anyways with me I've learned to accept myself for who I am I'm 30years old now and I have finally come to accept that I'm not perfect I will never be exactly perfect because in all fairness I am perfect AS. I. AM God made me the way I am for a reason and that is that. But of course it wouldn't hurt for God to improve a little something for me. (Just saying)
Let's talk about a topic that we all can relate to "women". So today is "international women's day", to you what does that mean the word woman? To me it means confidence, strength, and woman power. Growing up I had a lot of women in my life that were amazing and still are examples in my life. My mom grew up in a predominantly female house, so my poor uncle had 4 older sisters. As women society holds us to a very high standard back in the day women were meant to stay at home and take care of the house and the children. Working women back then was very few and far between and those that did work were and even today are still fighting for equality among the men. To me we have all the same rights nothing should be limited or withheld. As a woman in God's eyes we are loved and cherished sure Eve was the first and she messed up but that didn't mean she was loved any less. Let's talk about confidence as a woman, we are and can be in everything that we s...
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